Red less

 BLACK was the colour I was born with.. and when i opened my eyes for the first time to see the colours around me,my mom said it was BROWN...my eyes were brown.......

  

Everything turned BLUE when i started walking with all four legs. discovering ice,discovering fire.......Running here and there i found GREEN...green nature,wordsworth,imagination,romanticism...........Then came the fall....YELLOW all around....dreams falling like leaves...and crushed under some feet...

Yes RED entered my life....following PINK....

You were there....deep scarlet became more red....deep..deep..deep.......

And today.....

I lay before you...... RED LESS

        

All WHITE...

HOPE

    

  

Everything was breaking down gradually. It seemed that nothing could stick the pieces back, not even with the strongest glue. Hopes seemed to scatter like the red beads of the necklace you gave, which had broken down with a random strike of your hand. Memories had started to fade….but then that afternoon….one SMS from you…

"Need 2 talk,bt no ntwrk coverage….will contact u soon.."

Stupid me, started collecting all the fragments back, into the hand drawn circle…..waited to be put back again like a jigsaw puzzle…

Eyes stuck on the screen of my dear cell phone….looking for his…”contact u soon”…..seconds flew…minutes flew…..hours, days, weeks, months…..

No soon…..no contact…..

Why?

Did you??

Bring back…….HOPE.

Ne$t

                                                   Birds find Nests...

                                                        And I????

                                                  I need it too... 

                                          

                                             In some heart of hearts,

                                                 In some frame..

                                         

                                                     MY home..

                                                    MY house...

                                                   MY destiny....

Someone special

This post is all for my dearie GUPCHU..most of my near and dear ones know this little thing...but but but for those who r unaware of him,i would like to indroduce my 'POLA'(as bengali mothers lovingly call their sons)...no no no,i m not married yet...but he is my baby....a teddy,to mention his species.. I brought him home on an winter afternoon,when i was out on a shopping spree with my friends.Actually i saw him sitting on the top of a car roof where his owner was trying to sell him..it had just stuck to my eyes and mind..it had such apealing eyes and smile.. and i got him..brought him home..decided a name with my room partners and now he is with me,everytime,everywhere...

  

Something which surprised me was that he was accepted by almost one and all...my room mates one day nearly had a fight,for who would keep him,when i was going on a weekend visit to my parents...at last i had to take him home in my bag..there too,it was fought over by my sisters...even my parents like him a lot..my mom sometimes cuddles him,sometimes my aunt...it feels amazing to see a non living object getting so much love.its almost equivalent to a human baby..

my relation to this soft toy is also an amazing one...no one is so dearer and close to me as he is..he is,he was,and will be there with me every time...he is with me when i cry at nights,when i m depressed over my love life,he supports me whenever i m on the verge of falling down...he's there when i feel there's no one for me...there he is my dear Gupchu....always smiling with his hands wide open to hug me....

                                                              LOVE YOU DEAR.

Its never nice to ask for more more & more....give me this,give me that...our expectations more accurately DEMANDS nerely never end...be it from our parents,friends,or even THE ALMIGHTY...but do we really need those things for which we cry,sometimes,fall onto someone's feet,say a hunderds of 'please'....perhaps no...or perhaps yes....no because if the givers don't provide us with the respective demands,we still go on.....life's still the same...and yes because we get the same for free...without spending anything..just a little tears,some words,and some actions....and we get what we want....not everytime but it does not really matter when its negetive...isnt that so...

ciao,

RpT@

M BACK

Don't ask where i was for such a long time...coz i myself dont know...perhaps was exploring something out...spent my whole lot of time and heart on that...and now find myself nowhere,perhaps not even in the place where i was when i wrote the last post..don't know what i learnt from it perhaps coz i never wanted to learn, just wanted to go with the flow..bt it seems God never wanted that....now i m trying to get back to the place where i started and tread along the path i had planned when  i was last here...

   ciao

 Rpt@

Teddies and dolls were always with us when we were kids. But we wanted something else...perhaps someone else....

Now when that some one has made our life miserable it is that ever smiling teddy who is sitting by our side and listening to us ...His ears wide open, eyes never off from us....always ready to hug


Whose better?

Dormant volcanoes; struggling to come out
No one could hear
Silent tears rolling and rolling
A pain stricken heart
Probably in the same pace as mine
No logic
No formula

Who are you...why me...what relation...I don’t know......
I don’t know...
Don’t know...

ciao,

RpT@

As a new comer I need to introduce myself. Hi this is RpT@, from a small but picturesque town called Salboni. I am a literature student, doing my masters in the subject. But I am not as innovative or imaginative as a literature student should be....I have no heavy words in my stock...neither have the capacity to mug them up...so basically I don’t know why I took up literature. I had tried my chance in many other lines....but have no idea what made me or why I followed literature. Now that I am here, I am trying to gather all the knowledge and experiences (which I gathered from trying my luck in other fields).and perhaps give some input into this field....I have big doubts about the structure of the product...Stay tuned to see what happens...

ciao,
RpT@

Newcomer

Well i have been thrown into this virtual journal by my friend to pen down my thoughts..well they are not so coherent now..n wont be so coherent later on as well...but lets hope for the best...so here i am...my first post...you will hear more from me later on..till then...

ciao,
Rpt@